#WW: šŸ˜“ Clutter erodes our focus, hereā€™s how we can be better

#WW: šŸ˜“ Clutter erodes our focus, hereā€™s how we can be better

Wholesome Wednesdays (WW): Bringing you curated positive content on Wednesdays to uplift your hump day.

Happy month of labour day! How can we become better ‘workers’ or professionals in the line of work? Minimalism and its value of decluttering might be an interesting way to be more effective at the work place!

  1. Minimalism is more than clearing things, here’s what you might’ve missed
  2. Decluttering as a zen meditation

Minimalism is more than clearing things, here’s what you might’ve missed

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What’s going on here & Why we like it

Ben Meer, an influencer focused on personal development, shares 5 life clutter areas people might miss. These are relationship clutter, physical clutter, digital clutter, financial clutter, and time clutter. We like how actionable it is to declutter our lives at this very moment so that we can focus on what is truly important.

“Fewer possessions = more freedom/optionality”

Wise Steps

  • Contemplate: What can you declutter today?
  •  Avoid the hedonic treadmill (pursuing one pleasure after another without experiencing any material change in happiness)

Check post here or below!

Decluttering as a zen meditation

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What’s going on here & why we like it

Leo Babauta, zen habits’ creator, shares how decluttering might seem overwhelming but it can be also seen as peaceful meditation. Leo shares three areas of decluttering by defining clutter, letting it go mindfully, and clutter as mindfulness practice

“Clutter might be things we think we might need sometime in the future. We hold on to them just in case. Over-packing for a trip is a good example ā€” we bring more than we really need, just in case we need them. Itā€™s the same in our houses ā€” we have a ton of things we donā€™t really need or use, just in case.”

Wise Steps

  • What’s one thing that you can declutter right now?
  • Clear one surface in your room/house now, do so slowly and mindfully.

Read it here

How knowing the metta sutta changed my approach to meditation

How knowing the metta sutta changed my approach to meditation

TLDR: In this post, we share insights on loving-kindness meditation, where we learn that within us, lies the mother who loves her child unconditionally.Ā 

Like many beginner Buddhists, I started my meditation training by paying attention to the breath. 

At the time, I had no idea how to meditate. I was just watching the breath, and over-focusing on it brought on both tension and calm. Tension arose when I was unable to focus my attention on the breath and calm arose when I was able to pay attention to the breath. 

It was after a very long time that I noticed I was meditating unskillfully because I did not want tension but I wanted calm (wanting and not wanting are causes of suffering in the second noble truth).

While training my mind, I learnt the loving-kindness chant, and also loving-kindness meditation. This meditation practice was a lot easier than focusing on the breath. It is very pleasant to practice and seldom did I feel the tension in loving-kindness meditation

But when there is a narrow focus on loving-kindness as an object of attention for a sustained period of time, I clung to the pleasantness of this meditation and felt dissatisfied when I could not escape the tensions of daily life into this beautiful experience of inner conditioned love.1 

An external understanding of loving-kindness

The entire loving-kindness chant is worth reading over again and again for reflection. When we become familiar with meaningful chants such as the loving-kindness chant, we may find ourselves experiencing some of the verses in daily life. 

For instance, the verse: ā€œUnburdened with duties and frugal in their waysā€, made me realise that I need to not surround myself with so many tasks or hobbies that I canā€™t practice mindfulness in my life.

There is also a portion of the chant that inspires me:

ā€œEven as a mother protects with her life

Her child, her only child,

So with a boundless heart

Should one cherish all living beingsā€

Love and wisdom are aspects of the Dhamma that are inseparable. 

Love without wisdom is foolishness while wisdom without love is cold and selfish. I was inspired by the verse and wondered how I could cherish all living beings with a boundless heart as a mother who loves her child. 

But I was blinded by arrogance as I was still very identified with my personality – my name, and my background – essentially thoughts I could not let go of. While clinging onto the thoughts of ā€˜Iā€™, ā€˜meā€™, and ā€˜mineā€™, I thought about wanting to spread boundless, or unconditional love to all beings. But how could it be possible, when the type of love I understood, is a thought that has no permanence? Since thoughts are fleeting. 

An internal understanding of loving-kindness

Whenever a habitual thought/feeling is solidified (seems real to the mind), we take ownership of it and defend it. The experience of a solidified thought/feeling or feeling/thought is tension in the body. There is a contraction which is a feeling of tightness somewhere in the body.

When we notice how tension (suffering) is caused by holding onto thoughts, and how one thought causes a chain of thoughts (psychological rebirth), we can drop thoughts as if we are dropping a lump of hot burning coal we have been holding onto all our lives. 

Our society prize thinking as the gift of humanity, as shown in our knowledge economy, and so we cannot bear to part with it. Thinking has contributed to a better way of life for individuals but has also destroyed much of Mother Earth. 

The result of dropping thoughts habitually causes an almost immediate letting go of tension in the mind and body. Upon letting go of the tension, there is deep relaxation and opening of the mind (which embodies the whole body).

Thoughts start to part like clouds in the sky, and the sky is the experience of a widened awareness, resembling the mother in the loving-kindness sutta, who loves her child (the fleeting thoughts and feelings) without being attached. 

The child here can be unwholesome thoughts or feelings, as well as wholesome ones. There is that embrace of the mother with love and wisdom. She knows the child comes from her womb, but it isnā€™t her, and therefore she can soothe its pains and pleasures.2

Loving-Kindness in every object of meditation

Loving-kindness is a precious spiritual practice in our world where most minds are absorbed into the digital domain of endless thoughts – on social media, news apps and video streaming. Although most meditators begin their meditation journey with the breath, and practice loving-kindness separately, in reality, they arenā€™t separate.

We can see loving-kindness as the mother, that embraces the child, which is the breath. Every meditation object we use to train our attention is embraced by the mother, a spacious awareness that embraces the child. Within all of us, lies this mother who loves her child unconditionally, within or without.


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1 Conditioned love involves a person thinking about love. Unconditioned love is an experience without needing someone to think about love for it to arise. 

2 We normally identify pain as suffering. But pleasures cause suffering too, when we donā€™t get what we want, or get what we donā€™t want. 


Wise Steps:

  • Loving-kindness is an unconditional aspect of the dhamma. But to practice it, we need to condition our minds with regular guided practice.
  • Reflect on the loving-kindness chant, so that you can notice the verses become a reality in your life. 
5 Frenemies you might meet during meditation

5 Frenemies you might meet during meditation

 

TLDR: Meditation always seems so hard to get acquainted with, there is always this inner voice that says, I canā€™t do it or I donā€™t do it good enough. However, once you recognize what is making it so difficult, your ā€œenemiesā€ can become your friend too.

Howā€™s your meditation retreat? If the answer is ā€œso soā€ or ā€œnot so good,ā€ congratulations you fit into 99% of what most meditation practitioners experienced. Oftentimes, just having this idea about how our meditation practice should be going is already setting us up for ā€œfailureā€.

There is an innate judgement or comparison about how our mind ought to be during meditation instead of simply observing it as it is.

We have this expectation on the kind of progress we ought to have, comparing our meditation today with the one we had before, a ā€œbetterā€ peaceful meditation. 

My teacher, Venerable Phra Ajahn Den, taught me one has to learn and see the moment as it is. The main goal is to be fully aware of whatā€™s happening now in this very present moment. Seeing things simply the way they are has nothing to do with good or bad. Meditate as if there is no outcome or result waiting somewhere in space and time. Itā€™s about learning how we can become more unbiased and resilient to the present moment.

So, whatā€™s getting in the way of being in this present moment?

The Pali Canon speaks of five hindrances, which I rename as 5 frenemies [you have to make friends with your enemies to win the battle right? :)].

They are called (paƱca nÄ«varaį¹‡Äni in Pali) or obstructions during meditation, namely: sense desire (kāmacchanda), Aversion (byāpāda), sloth and torpor (thÄ«na-midda), restlessness and remorse (uddhacca-kukkucca), and doubt (vivikicchā). We have all had moments ā€” perhaps one more than the other ā€” when these emotions arise in our meditation practice.

Sense Desire

Sense desire includes wishing our legs to be less numb; wishing for our weather to be warmer, cooler, or quieter; wishing we are less sleepy. Sounds familiar?

I was given a choice in the temple on how I like to practice my meditation, so naturally, I chose to practice my walking meditation outdoors. Itā€™s not because it is better than indoors. Outdoor meditation provides more challenges: feeling the sweat dripping on your body on a hot day, houseflies buzzing around, and the potential of getting bitten by mosquitoes.

For those who have not done walking meditation before, my practice does not allow me to make any movement other than walking back and forth across a fixed distance. In doing so, I am training the mind to focus solely on the body’s movements and not engage in feelings arising from external disturbances. While walking, Iā€™m taught to be aware and recognize arising sensations.

With that restraint, the sense of desire grows stronger. I wish there will be more breeze. I wish the houseflies could leave me alone and many more. 

Embarrassing to share, but before I came to the retreat, I was watching a Netflix series 1899. The show was so intriguing that I would think about watching the next episodes during the retreat and wondering what would happen! 

Nonetheless, it shouldnā€™t be a smooth sailing journey. Without all these sense desires that arise, how do I recognise or understand them better?

The desires seem to get a hold of me, so alluring and yet so unsatisfying at the same time. It is like being trapped in a prison cell you put yourself in, where you have no control.

How do I observe that these desires are so impermanent and are always trapping me in a prison cell? 

Aversion

Aversions include being annoyed by someone who is not considerate by making loud noises during the retreat. Or even deeper than that: resentment and anger from emerging memories surface into our practice. We can spend countless hours imagining how we are going to defend ourselves the next time we see that so-and-so. Like a performer rehearsing, we rationalise how we will react and this thought process reinforces our narrative of being the aggrieved party. 

We can dig the bottomless hole.

As I have chosen to keep noble silence in the retreat, my friend, who attended the retreat and knew I was keeping my mouth closed, tried her very best to talk to me after being told that I was not speaking. When her solicitation for a verbal response failed, she messaged me on the phone.

She was not even asking any questions about the meditation practice. Rather, she was seeking advice for a poster design that someone was doing for her event (Iā€™m a professional designer).

Half of the time, I was lamenting about this person during the retreat.  I realised how silly I was. She didn’t even know I was annoyed by her. So, immediately realising the aversion was not helpful for my practice, I confronted the annoyance.

I stopped lamenting and was aware that my friend is also a human being just like me – someone who needs love and compassion. I sent her my loving kindness and hoped that she could be awakened by her insight in this retreat.

Isnā€™t letting go of hatred a way to extend compassion and loving-kindness to ourselves in such moments too?

Sloth and Torpor

Sloth and torpor refer to a lack of alertness. It can be mental states of dullness, boredom, sleepiness, or indulging in pleasure, not realizing you are taking the comfort for granted by not stepping out of your comfort zone.

These states are often due to physical causes such as sleep deprivation, exhaustion, or monotonous auto-pilot mode filled with mundane actions. 

I woke up at 4am every morning to start my meditation. It does feel sleepy yet I can appreciate the routine ā€“ so I can do in the retreat what I normally wouldn’t do in my daily life. 

I pushed my body and mind into unusual conditions to see how my mind reacts and responded with the ā€œabnormalityā€. I will never know how far I can reach without stepping out of my comfort zone. 

Restlessness & Remorse

Restlessness is that feeling of wanting to get the practice over with and asking in my mind, ā€˜Is it time to end my meditation?ā€™ 

As a designer, Iā€™m so used to thinking about the next step and moving on to the next project. I seldom stop and appreciate the moment of what I had designed or done at that moment. 

In this retreat, I let go of the control over my ā€œmeticulousā€ plan. 

I went with the flow with Phra Ajahnā€™s reassurance when he spoke to my friends, who are beginners doing a meditation retreat. 

He said, ā€œEvery time, I see the faces of my disciples with serious and stressed faces. It shouldnā€™t be like this. You should be more relaxed and enjoy the process. That you finally had this opportunity to see who you truly are without any distractions.ā€

Whenever I felt restless, I stopped beating myself up for my incompetence to stay awake, I observe it as it is when it happens. I tried not to control how I should feel but rather to look in and befriend restlessness as a feeling. Once I’m aware of it, I don’t feel restless anymore.

Remorse is a sore spot in memory, where you wish that you could redo something ā€” your mind keeps returning to it, endlessly replaying ā€œwoulda,ā€ ā€œshoulda,ā€ and ā€œcouldaā€.

Where do I even begin? 

I can count my blessings. I can also count how much guilt I have borne. 

The guilt of not seeing my father when he passed is always there. However, whenever that guilt arises, I will dedicate whatever merits I have gained to him so I can lessen my guilt. 

Confront your mistakes. Learn how to untie the knots: by seeing you can’t change anything and have closure like knowing what you can do now to make it better. Follow your breath and let it all out.

Doubt

Doubt could be doubt about the Dharma, the path, your teacher, or your practice. 

ā€œIs this the right practice for me?ā€
ā€œShould I take my meal now?ā€
ā€œShould I take more food since Iā€™m not taking food after noon?
ā€œShould I be trying something else?ā€

ā€œDoes my practice get me anywhere?ā€ 

You may be doing mindfulness of the breath and wondering whether you should be counting your breaths, doing mental noting, chanting, or engaging in the choiceless debate instead.

Now, calling these mental factors ā€œhindrancesā€ is a fundamental misconstruction. They can also be our friends if we get a chance to know them better. Itā€™s better to think of mental states as useful tools for a particular purpose.

Instead of wishing the hindrances away, perhaps we can explore them with interest and simply observe them as they are. Can we notice how each sensation or thought behaves without our participation? When we are aware and apply effort to observe, the hindrances become our very practice itself rather than obstacles in the way of practice.

They could be our friends, enemies or frenemies however you want to see them (sometimes their roles can switch too). Whatever it is, hindrances are necessary for our mental cultivation. 

If we were so perfect in our mindset if the meditation retreat was so smooth sailing, why do we even need to do a meditation retreat in the first place? 

Summary

After all, our minds, like everything else, are interdependent and affected by causes and conditions. Our goals when we practice meditation are to develop three skillful abilities:

1) staying with the object of meditation (Concentration);

2) recognizing when weā€™ve drifted off (Awareness);

3) returning to the object without fuss or judgment (Equanimity). 

When we have a ā€œgood meditation,ā€ i.e, when our concentration is strong and weā€™re able to stay with our object of meditation, we are developing the first skill.  Even when we keep drifting off and returning to our concentration 100 times during meditation, weā€™re still developing the second and third skills.

These may be the most important skills we need to have in improving our daily lives: recognizing when weā€™re no longer present and returning to mindfulness. It is what we do after the meditation retreat that is more important than the actual retreat itself.  Not everything you encounter has to be good or bad, It’s relativity, what’s good for you can be bad, and what’s bad for you can be good too. We should treat everything we face as frenemies. Isn’t that what non-duality is all about? ; )

Ajahn Chah, a famous Thai forest monk, once said, 

ā€œYou are your teacher. Looking for teachers canā€™t solve your doubts. Investigate yourself to find the truth – inside, not outside. Knowing yourself is most important.ā€

Keep watching your mind just as it is. Turning poison into wisdom is the path of the Buddhas. Turning enemies into friends would make your meditation journey a little less bumpy.


Wise Steps:

  • Do you always feel that meditation is ‘tough’? Or that your meditation is going nowhere? Identifying these 5 frenemies might be helpful
  • Knowing which of these 5 hindrances affect you the most and how to deal with them will be key to growing in your practice.
Walk with me: An invitation to meditate during a film

Walk with me: An invitation to meditate during a film

TL;DR: This a reflection of a short movie about Thich Nhat Hanh, his teachings and community. Letā€™s walk together.

I had the chance to join the DAYWA (Dhamma Assembly for Young Working Adults) group for the Walk with Me movie screening some weeks ago. It’s a documentary showing a glimpse of activities in Plum Village, the community founded by Thich Nhat Hanh in France after he was exiled from Vietnam during Vietnam war time. It is a space for practitioners to immerse themselves in Zen Buddhism and the art of mindful living.

The directors perhaps wanted to appeal to a wider population, accompanying it with narration by Benedict Cumberbatch – with his deep voice and strong British accent. And I believe it may have worked when he read several lines from Thich Nhat Hanh’s journal throughout the movie.

There isn’t much dialogue or scripted lines like we’re used to in movies. It contains snapshots of activities, short conversations, moving images or sounds of nature.

What may seem like random scenes strung together, turns out to be a strangely beautiful flow of the story for me.

Cr: Scenes from the film

Captivating scenes

One of the earlier scenes left a deep impression on me: a group of laypeople on their knees, waiting in line for ordination. What’s striking isn’t so much the act of joining the ordained ones, but the deep sense of relief I see in their faces. Tears flooded down their faces, not from grief, but as if a huge rock had been lifted off their chests.

Cr: Scenes from the film

Witnessing such an intimate emotion, I can’t help but tear up and wonder to myself: when was the last time I experienced such a huge relief? What is weighing us down in life?

Cr: Scenes from the film. I love the knowing smile of ā€œwelcome to the groupā€

The bell chime every 15 minutes was cited by many of us as a good reminder for mindfulness – stop whatever it is and catch our breaths intentionally while listening to the bell for a few seconds. The resumption of the activities seems as if nothing has disrupted the motion; if not with the attitude of new experience.

Perish

“Friends want you to appear in the familiar form they know. But that is impossible. How could we continue to live if we were changeless? To live we must die every instance. We must perish again and again in the storms that make life possible.”

A few sentences with an immense reminder to the ever-changing nature of life: we’re not truly living if we try to fix part of us from others’ memory of us and we can’t fix others based on our memory of them. 

It also reminds me of one poem in Yung Puebloā€™s book Clarity & Connection:

How can we have a real conversation if every time we speak I can see in your eyes that my words are not reaching you? They stop at a narrative you have created about me based on who I was many years ago.

A reminder to let go of the past – image and belief of something and someone. So we could be fully present with what is in front of us, even if itā€™s a version that weā€™re unfamiliar with or dislike about. 

The movie wasn’t only filmed within the compound of Plum Village, but also journeys to the outside world to share Buddha’s teaching. It was interesting how the monks’ and nuns’ encounters in the U.S. (prison visit, park meditation, monk’s and nun’s visit of family) shine light on the many who don’t understand Buddhism. 

The scenes showed how these monks and nuns patiently shared with those who’d like to listen, in a way relatable to them. It was almost funny how the prisoners seemed to be frightened or perhaps showing pity when the monk said monks/nuns do not hold possessions and donā€™t even hold their own money – as if to ask: who is the one living in jail? But who is the freer person – the one who chooses to drop things or who yearns for things being denied?

Final words

I’ve watched the piece for the second time to write this article and a third time to find meaningful scenes to include alongside and realise that I can ‘watch’ it with my eyes closed. The directors have inserted beautiful sounds of nature, chanting and singing, familiar yet unfamiliar words and melodies. This is the first time I’ve heard Namo Avalokistesvara being chanted alongside violin accompaniment – a new way to appreciate the words and embrace what it stands for. 

Cr: Scenes from the film: A smile can be a beautiful sound

One may expect to see more scenes with the Master himself. While Thich Nhat Hanh does make a couple of appearances in answering a question from a little girl (she’s feeling sad because her dog has passed away) and scenes covering his presence in the hall, there are limited scenes of him. His teachings and messages are cleverly transmitted through the actions and energies of his students; even in mundane activities like (mindfully) sipping a small cup of tea.

In summary, this may not be the typical movie or documentary.

One needs to appreciate and trust the flow enfolding every new second, as our self-held expectations and mind search for particular meaning or story, which is the result of a mind habitually trained at grasping. We can probably practise what Thich Nhat Hanh himself taught and come home. 


Key Reflections:

  • Keeping ourselves open to new activities with a new group of people could result in a positive experience
  • The group may be watching the same film, but the message that strikes us individually may be different depending on our internal world
  • Lengthy script isn’t necessary to transmit a message that is well-woven in the visual, audio and tone of the piece 
I took a break from the noisy world for 10 days. Hereā€™s what I learnt.

I took a break from the noisy world for 10 days. Hereā€™s what I learnt.

Editorā€™s note: This is an abridged version of Robertaā€™s Vipassana experience post on her blog. There are many different ways to approach meditation and start learning. Some are more hardcore than others. Ultimately, it is about finding the techniques that suit your temperament and strengths. Robertaā€™s retreat experience represents one of the diverse Buddhist meditation techniques that one can try! Do check some out here


TLDR: The opportunity to sit in silence for 10 days was equally the hardest and most gratifying experience Iā€™ve had so far. I decided to write about my Vipassana experience and try to distil my observations and reflections. Whether you one day embark on a similar retreat, or even if you donā€™t, I hope it encourages everyone to introspect on their mental thought patterns in a beneficial way. May we all break free from the thoughts that hold us back.

Ten days, a vow of silence, no interpersonal communication and absolutely no external distractions. Alcohol, tobacco, drugs, books, writing materials and any type of electronic device are all out of the question. Heck, you arenā€™t even allowed to bring your own snacks. Ten days with you, your mind and your body, separated from the material possessions that define you.

In this contained environment with nothing to escape to, would I be able to sit with the unwelcome visits of Madame Ego and Mr Monkey Mind with a compassionate lens?

What would consume me to attend a course like Vipassana? How has it impacted me, if at all. Where is my head after the experience and will I continue the practice? Letā€™s process.

Reflection

It was liberating to know that I could push my mind to sit through at times very gruelling sessions. 

The course was a powerful practice of discipline, and a real humbling reminder that we donā€™t need to act on the critical, and often dominant, voice inside. It brought to the forefront the complexities of what we consider our identities, and how we have a say in how we define our experiences. 

I was able to reflect on the many roles I play in my own life (partner, daughter, sister, friendā€¦). Iā€™ve rewritten this post a few times, in the hope of avoiding sounding like a generic Vipassana informational. Iā€™ve landed on sharing the points that defined my Vipassana experienceā€¦

Grounding in nature

For those of us that live in cities, our daily lives are often dominated by being indoors and sheltered from the elements. 

The opportunity to be in Blackheath, one of the highest points in the Blue Mountains surrounded by lush greenery, Australian rich red soils and rolling hills was a blessing. 

It was a true lesson of living in the moment, as the weather would change in the blink of an eye. Sunshine and wispy white clouds would shift into ominous grey balls pissing down with showers. Howling winds would break into stillness. 

Being lucky enough to attend in Spring, we became witness to flowers blossoming, majestic sunsets, and titillating thunderstorms (natureā€™s Dolby surround sound). 

By day 3, there was an observable grounding in the cohort, people less on a mission, and more in the momentā€¦

Remaining equanimous

The course requires meditators to follow a schedule from 4am-9:30pm daily, with up to 11 hours of seated Vipassana meditation each day. 

Those hour-long sits with no movement, could easily make you think that time itself had cruelly and permanently stopped. Your body would scream and every cell in your body would be begging you to move. Yet, as physically or mentally excruciating as the sessions could be, each meditation block would comeā€¦ and go. 

Food times were a reminder of the same. The course schedule had two fixed meal times (6:30am and 11am), where weā€™d feel the short-lived exhilaration of receiving sustenance, a natural dopamine-lifting activity. 

Weā€™d happily receive a dollop of vegetarian food with some rice or bread and a simple side salad. Weā€™d relish the warmth, or the spices, the crunch or smooth textures of the meal. 

One perfect bite and all the memories of the painful hour before would all but dissipate. And as quickly as weā€™d lined up at the start, mealtime would be over and weā€™d be in another gruelling meditation session. 

It was a true lesson of the impermanent nature of everything, good or bad.

Introspection

As the days progressed, it became more intuitive to observe the inner voices and mental thought patterns without being carried away by them. 

By creating the intention of breathing and objectively noticing, it allowed space to question the patterns and impulses that sway us like ships in a storm. 

Some meditations, Iā€™d feel like walking out early and running away. Otherā€™s Iā€™d feel the competitive urge to stick it out. Slowly, the meditation time blocks became sacred and immovable, and it would only be my mind running away rolling through itā€™s dialogue. 

It was particularly interesting to observe my mild human addiction to catastrophizing, assuming situations will result in the worst possible outcome (cut to scenes of when my clients would tell me they needed a word and I would agonise thinking I did something wrong when in actual fact, it was a kudos for a job well done). The whole experience became an exercise of observing sensations, acknowledging its existence and letting it pass or shift into something different.

Boredom

With none of the usual external objects of distraction handy, it was inevitable that Iā€™d misconstrue the silence as boredom. However, surrounded by the crisp mountain air, allowing myself to do nothing allowed space for my most creative ideas and for old forgotten memories to surface. 

New connections formed by linking new and old experiences resulted in new perspectives and questions to ponder. I remain evermore in awe of the brain and human spirit as it is a constant vault of activity that is never completely knowable to us. 

I realised that my interpretation of boredom slowly shifted into enjoyment for the quiet space where these bouts of inspiration could appear.

Taking things less seriously

With no one to talk to and hours of often intense isolating meditation experiences, it was easy to get into an existential or philosophical mindset (Why did that memory come up? Why does it hurt so much? Who is that voice in my head? I feel restless, I should be at home writingā€¦). 

During a recess on Day 5, halfway through the course with a throbbing lower back and tight hips, I was reflecting on the morning Vipassana session, where the theme was a heavy reflection of my future. 

Looking out at the deep green tree tops and rolling clouds, my mind swirled with thoughts of life after Vipassana and I felt a fire ignite in my gut about the changes Iā€™d need to make. 

Sitting on a log bench overlooking the valley, my eyes were glued to a particularly tall and striking gum tree, rooted by a thick speckled trunk with peeling strands of dark brown bark that looked to have weathered many storms. 

As I sat in wordless oneness with the tree, an Australian wedge-tailed Eagle (I kid you not) landed on one of the branches, directly in my foreground. 

For a moment, it looked like a scene from Aztecan folklore – a premonition of the greatness to come. The Eagle sat majestically in profile view for a postcard shot in my brain. Suddenly, it turned as if facing me beak-on, andā€¦ dropped a huge shit before flying away. 

That broke my trance and made me laugh. Not everything has to have a meaning. It just is.

The experience this time was very different to my first stint 7+ years ago. Beyond being obviously younger, and more immature,  my young adult mind was riddled with anxiety and concerns about the uncertain future. 

This time around, despite the pending uncertainty, I approached the experience with far more curiosity, openness and acceptance of myself. I could observe my reactions and mental jerks (sudden movements, not the nasty voices) with a sense of understanding. I have faith in my ability to weather any storm.

Will I continue the practice?

Now the golden question is, will I continue the practice? At this point, the answer is yes, until it is no. I am living moment to moment. While not all aspects of the theory agree with me (or rather, I with it), I value the practice for helping to create space and awareness of my own internal dialogue and impulses. 

It empowers us to make conscious choices and to be the Master of our Present – the only true way to try to influence the future.

Iā€™m a strong believer in the benefits of meditation and have long incorporated different techniques into my own daily life. Iā€™ve spent years facilitating mindfulness courses (for corporate groups), and guiding meditations and I continue to foster a mindfulness community that I am lucky to learn from regularly. 

I see meditation and mindfulness practices as a cornerstone to good mental health and resilience. So I naturally get a little uncomfortable when the course links meditation to something as obscure as spiritual liberation. I choose to take this part with a grain of salt, as the technique itself is practical and a helpful observation of one’s internal self. I hope it doesnā€™t scare people off, who could actually benefit from any sort of meditation practice.


Wise Steps:

  • Take time to observe your thought processes through a reflective activity, whether that be meditation, journaling, or talking to a therapist or friend. It will help to clarify your blocks.
  • Take things less seriously. Everything passes with time. Everything.